Dreams are interesting sometimes, as
long as you can keep them in lucid state, and the science of dreams
isn't even known well (if at all) to this day, so it can be fascinating
to see what
happened.
This
is a case of nested dreams (dreams within a
dream)
Context:
1.Today
(technically yesterday) after school, so tired that I slept from ~5:30PM to
12:10AM, I awakened and did work (CV stuff +other non-academic stuff))/
or AI chatting until
~3:15AM
2.
Dad was concerned, told me to actually sleep and that my sleep has some problems, but my MOM clashes with his
ideas and said that whatever works best works best (for me). Dad said to
leave the arguing until tomorrow as it’s nighttime already and Dad thus
told me to do work and gave me his charger to charge my laptop, but I
didn’t use it
3.
At ~4AM, I slept again, woken up at ~5:45AM, and then I wrote this down
because dreams are quickly
forgotten.
Context
#2
Basically,
there were three layers of my
dream
Layer
A: Dreaming about things that can happen (or actually did) in real life
even if
unlikely
Layer
B: Dreaming about falling into a dream, in the “transition
period”?
Layer
C: Dreaming about things that won’t happen in the real
world.
The
first
one:
Dad
was concerned about why I was sleeping on a bed so late, being so
naughty to sleep
schedules, and stuff.
I
was indeed sleeping and then suddenly my bed fell off or something and
then re-installed itself (basically moving chaotically), it was clearly
defying physics yet I am unharmed, and felt something
supernatural
In
a dream, yet observation: I am lying on a
bed.
Right
within the moment of falling asleep, I experienced a “heart attack” when
I lost control and the fact my hand was on my heart and then I felt an
extremely hard-to-describe force that felt like my heart was "distorting
into a swirl" and “help help help” At that moment I realized that I
basically cannot scream for help due to loss of voice and consciousness,
and thus nobody would actually be able to help with such problems. I
could actually be dead. Could be sleep
paralysis.
I
eventually escaped. Though I’m not sure whether I actually did wake up
for
real.
The
second one:
I
had a vision of getting out of my
house.
When
I was in the elevator, a stranger asked for me to carry their baby while
she is getting something else out (I forgot what) as if she has known me
before
At
the lobby? The window suddenly opens. I suddenly spread my hands like a
bird and zoomed right through. I suddenly felt like I had escaped the
“cage” of my life and had freedom as I was flying in the skies. I tried hard
to not wake up, and this time I actually succeeded in not canceling my
lucid dream. I think I flied to familiar places without landing, and
then a new "restaurant-area"/ shopping mall-ish place. However, I lost
my flight ability after a
while.
I
think I felt “true freedom” at that time. Went inside a hotpot
restaurant, but realized that this is no ordinary occasion just to get
food so I continued moving, Suddenly I saw my teachers as if they were
there coincidentally, and I realized that it was suddenly a rare
opportunity that I can “envision” what people would be like if they
actually talked to me (I am incredibly solitude-type when in real life).
But while walking on escalator the teachers just said things they said
in daily life like “Shut your mouth, respectfully” (math teacher) and
“Aayush is a pain to deal with (?)”(business teacher). Well I think
there were other talks, but I didn’t remember them. Though I did know
that even though there was human bias, the brain likes to experience things it rarely does, so it
felt
great.
Did
dream “emotional reset” after tough day lol what the
hell
Welp
and then I thought I woke up. I was in utter disbelief as I suddenly was
on a chair lying on the table and then waking up like I was napping in
school yet I was at
home. The charger was BURNT and DESTROYED from (excessive stretching or
broken by a fire?) And also there somehow were earphones blasting music
in my ears, and I wondered how I even fell asleep in the first place,
and whether it was utter
unawareness.
And
then I woke up for real. What a relief, never felt so fresh and ready in
probably my years of sleeping. Probably because it was 9 hours in total
that day (technically 2 but
shush).
Dreams:
a place where my imaginations fly, it’s so fine, it possesses the freedom one lacks in
real life with such a flawed humanity. And actually I wonder how I can
tell whether I am actually awake, or if life was a simulation all along
yet I don’t know, or how many nested dreams I am really
in.
Well
well well I also wonder whether problems are the essence of life. There
are people that can dream all day, in fact, others’ unpredictability as
they are controlled by their own will - it’s one of the biggest
obstacles of humans, ironically for social creatures.
Thus
I wrote this down so that it won’t fade from memory, and really, dreams
might be preparing for the worst case, but sleeping well it’s also a
good thing that most school people actually lack due to desire for freedom. Of course I
have it too. But I might need to “fix” it. I actually had a pretty lucid
dream this time lol. Perhaps, unforgettable, yet I already forgot most
of it due to psychological phenomena. :)