Feeling of not wanting to be done.
Though I do have a lot, I don’t actually want this wiki to be
done.
This is because it will make a part of my identity feel like it’s ripped
away. Just like when I finished my IGCSEs, I had no plan on what else to
do at that moment, so it was just a strange blend of both relief and
emptiness that is hard to describe… (IT’S NOT HAPPINESS THIS TIME, I
ASSURE YOU. I'M NOT HAPPY ABOUT CHRONIC STRESS)
Luckily, thoughts have flown into my head over time. I'm less bored than
before! time my dad said that the process is actually more important. I
think he’s partially right, but in the specific context of examinations, it can be a bit problematic
because the process itself is just tedious!
The antithesis of the above... There was one case in which after exams, he felt like some part of him was removed, like emptiness. BTW, I set ideals, not targets, i.e., ideally 100% in Chinese, but ill just work towards it with no expectation of reaching it. Is the end just getting rid of pain? But no matter my targets for my exams, the pain will just last equally as long, so it doesn’t really matter. (though of course a better grade is more pragmatically useful for job hunting and such.)